MISSING FROM ME

 

That bird, its call.

Two descending notes.

The same interval I use

when calling you. The same

elongation of the first tone,

gentle landing on the second.

Which is why I named it

after you, why I sing

back to it, using your name–

have for years. But

I still can’t name it

I mean I don’t know

which bird it is

that suspends me

with two sung syllables.

I can be on my knees

in the garden, busy

and dirt-minded, when

there’s that call and

I can’t keep my head

from lifting, can’t

keep myself doing:

must pause.

The bird calls me

calling you. This bird

I cannot identify

but whose voice I know

as well as yours. This distance.

Do you, I wonder, still long

on the other end

of all the long miles.

Do you hear me

when a bird calls your name?